Be Here Now [ VIII ]

Q.: I still have doubts whether one can do anything to be aware.

Bhikkhu: We cannot control anything. You cannot control seeing or

hearing. You don't know what you are going to hear next, or whether you

are even going to hear. Could one become blind and deaf now? We can't

control anything in life. Could one make oneself angry now? If so, it is

because there are conditions for it. If somebody would tell others that they

should be angry now, perhaps not everybody could be angry. They might

try, but it might not be possible. Some people may just laugh, others may

be aware. It is not only awareness you can't control. We cannot even

control wrong practice. One may take wrong practice for the right

practice, and one would like to have more of it than conditions allow. We

can't control anything. But with right understanding there can be more

awareness. If we listen to true Dhamma in the right way, over and over

again, with right attention, and learn to be aware little by little, right

understanding develops.

There are ways for everything to happen by conditions. We are more

familiar with attachment or anger. But who is familiar with awareness yet?

It has to be developed. It is easy to have attachment, but it is difficult to be

aware, awareness is not the object of attachment. .

Whenever awareness arises it is being developed. Right understanding

develops little by little, when there is infinite patience. You can't be patient

because you want to be, but with right understanding patience will take

care of itself, when the right conditions are present, and not when the

right conditions are not present. If there are not the right conditions for

awareness that explains why we do not have awareness. And if there are

the right conditions that explains why there is awareness. We should

never forget that awareness is not self, we should not take the credit for

it. If we are attached to awareness and think that we made it arise, then

there is no end to our troubles, no end to the cycle of birth and death.

Awareness is anatta. It is of no use to be attached to it, cling to it or to be

proud of ourselves for having awareness. One has to be aware of

awareness too.

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